"..if you're on the earth..you're on the path.." ?

?

thats right . .'earth: the spiritual playground'. . ?

". . great vacation

only things missing

were

true love

&

real wealth

?

every day

the ludicrous

horrendous

calous

just awful

thing happens

in the midst

of all the innane

& wonderous

miraculous

yummy

stuff

& still

the universe

just hummmz silently

along

seemingly

unphased

by any of this

yet

perhaps

profoundly

changed

by all of this

?

isn't it

isn't it funny
but not fun
to be so locked up
in this fishbowl
of should i stay
or should i go
should i stay in the world
of "the real world "
of mortality
or
should i go
let go
return
to the infinite
mind everpresent
the constant awareness
of the immortal nature
of all thingz real
true life

?

what if even the infinite is but a dream...

on the one hand

one must awake

from the dream

of ego

& seperateness

from the infinite

that allowz

one to think

the great

the barbarous

the capitalizing

the profitable

the infinite

the murderous

the enterprizing

the brilliant

the compassionate

the insensitive

the never ending

thot

to entertain

the notion

of peace

the soothing

tone

of

madness

& on the other hand

enlightenment

requirez

a precondition

of ignorance

without which

there'z just

infinite

light . .

&

a big mess

in this

little tiny

speck

of a place

we call

the real world

?

meanwhile

the infinte

consciousness

just sits here

bliss incarnate

hummming along

...with whatever the heck

it might be we think we're actually

doing...

witnesssing

our colorful

idiocy

watching us

remember

& forget

everything

heard it said

"..life

it seemz

iz a real

paradox

surrounded

by

an enigma

wrapped

in

the great

mystery

masquerading

az

a connumdrum

pretending

to be

invisible

while

hiding

itz

infinitude

in

the profound

silence

of

utter peace, calm, &

ultimate

simplicity . .

?

what happenz when

what happenz when

we come from

a place

where

true love

iz scarce

a scarce resource

the rarity

?

we idolize it

we idealize it

& fight over

& compete

to secure

a steady stream

of at least our illusion

of what we take

true love

to be

?

snip it

the false

prophet

thinkz

past

the truth

to gain stature in their own illusion

the prophecy

warnz

to be proven

wrong

the child

of the light

rememberz

the truth

of

being

of

choosing to come to life ....

?

emptiness. .

8.20.2005 driving across wyoming...:

"...what

do

i

fill

'the emptiness'

with..."

?

some fill it with creativity

some with family & friends

the demands of others...

some with fear, work, drugs, alcohol

some with entertainment

partying, fun having,

music, listening to the radio, noise,

movies, watching t.v. or people

hobbies...

some fill the emptiness we encounter in life

with love or "love"

falling in & out of love

question is

is the emptiness real

is it infinite

or is it just vast

illusion

while real life

is everpresent

unphased & full

?

nebraska

dae ly thot z

"...in the past few months
i have met those aspect of this self
the scriptures, traditions, mystics, & sage have variously referred to as
"the thief", " the liar", " the monkey swinging thru the forest of the mind"
that modern psychology calls " the ego"
& the founder of christian science, mary baker eddy called "mortal mind"
as opposed to "divine mind"
"the mind of god"
"the higher self "
"the truest self"
or "the Self"...
the ancestors appear to have made coded references to
"the thief"
because it [ the ego ] is that aspect of the self/ conscious mind
that steals the peace of mind of any & every moment possible
by thinking of something other than the truth & joy of the moment
thru distractions like worry & fear...

"the liar"
because it [ the ego] uses illusion to convince the self
that ultimate reality isn't
in order to create & maintain the illusion of a person,
a soul being separate from divinity: ones true nature
it does this thru distractions like doubt...

" the monkey swinging thru the forest of the mind"
a paraphrase from the work of taoist master lao tzu
the monkey is the conscious mind unable/ unwilling to maintain a stillness
quiet
within which it becomes possible for anyone to ultimately realize the true nature of things
instead the monkey [the ego] leaps about the walls of the mind without pause
from thoughtform to thoughtform to thoughtform
rather than peace...

i have witnessed my self being
the false prophet
& the half-made sage
pretending to know more than i do which is ultimately not much if anything
for who is the one who knows
the universe it seems knows everything & as children of the divine we must be everything as well
so why would we need to "know" really
which all sounds pretty sage like 'til you're stuck on the side of the road trying to fix your car
or your girlfriend dumps you without a word...
so i've seen myself
watched myself, witnessed myself
& it occurred to me that
everyone might be experiencing this same thing yet thinking we're each unique
watched this ego at work & play
& realize even this awareness is a ploy by the ego to avoid death/oblivion
by embracing the spiritual path
bargaining with the infinite for some way to survive the inevitable end: finitude
becoming what david hawkins refers to as
"the spiritualized ego"
the immutable self remains un phased, un convinced, & out of reach of falsehood & illusion
yet ever present, ever loving , ever supporting
yet elusive
?

- 8.14.2005 brooklyn, new york