"...hello brother...sorry to disturb..."

Q

hello brother...sorry to disturb

1:28am
David

sup


1:30am
Q

i have been going thru much of late, my father passing, end of relationship...but i am experiencing energy in the form of panic attacks and anxiety. can't sleep. im just reaching out...

1:31am
David

how old are you

1:31am
Q

46

1:31am
David

when is your birth day

and what time

1:31am
Q

july 14, 1963...10:49pm


1:32am
David

where

1:32am
Q

brooklyn, new york

1:39am
David

do you know much about astrology

1:39am
Q

a little. i mean i embrace it but don't study other than thru reading your work and some freinds

1:40am
David

has your father passed

1:40am
Q

yes

1:40am
David

when

1:41am
Q

early summer.....June

i was in line to see Amma and he passed. i am just feeling so strange in my mind and body.

1:42am
David

has the intensity of the reality of this been increasing this week

1:43am
Q

oh yeah...worst ever. no sleep. fear. panic attacks. my life is becoming so crazy. i hve never been this way before


1:43am
David

meditation?

1:44am
Q

no i haven't.

1:44amDavid

standing on your head

1:44am
Q

i stopped my practice...felt so lost...

no standing either

1:44am
David

hot tub

1:44am
Q

no

1:44am
David

hot springs

sweat lodge

1:46am
Q

no. money has been sparse. laid off. i became claustrophobic thru all this. a sweat lodge would be difficult for me. i've done them in the past. damn what is happening to me brother!!?

1:47am
David

i have some good news

1:48am
Q

yes? i would love to know

1:48am
David

i saved ten dollars on my car insurance...

1:49am
Q

~smiling~....i set myself up for that one i guess.

1:50am
David

the reason the father realization had intensified this week is the Sun passed your Saturn 3 days ago in the 12th house

what this means

both planets are the father archetypes

alpha males

pissing contest

the 12th house is the house of dreams

and connecting with the collective unconscious

SAturn is also the planet of Karmic lesson

1:54am
David

with your SAt. in the 12th it means your Karmic lesson has to do with connecting with the collective human unconscious

consider that

1:55am
Q

that explains the doom feeling i suppose. the fear. unrelenting fear. like a child left alone.

1:55am
David

some of what you have been feeling

may not be yours

that the grieving process of your fathers passing may be serving

to drop you in touch with

the frequencies of fear

associated with the father, abandonment

that the collective feels is feeling and has always felt

and that

you as an infinite immortal child of the light

that has chosen to incarnate at this time to assist with the rest of this soul group

to dispell the frequencies of fear on the planet

by dispelling the frequencies of fear within

yourself

and

that this is not something one can do

be remaining in the everythings alright side of life

but only by moving through the course of trial

of feeling loss

can you or i or anyone come up to bat

to came awake to

to come awake in the midst

of the agony that has been the emotional truth for the human experience since we created this place

of experiencing the illusion of the separation from the one

in that moment of

experiencing

the suck and yuk

if we can remember our infinitude

think infinite thoughts

connect with the infinite

we change the pattern for all

if we can come awake

in the midst of the fear

and angxiety

and chose

to give the universe, the infinite, divinity

our undivided attention

willing ly

without reservation

and even with glee

for the communion

we have then

changed the world

we are then

doing exactly what the universe

wants most of us

we are exactly where the universe wants us to be

and we can go on from here

it is easy

2:08am
Q

i understand...but my God...i feel so small and weak....i want to FEEL connected. to KNOW.

2:09am
David

to have a spiriutual

practice

when life is easy

but this is the time you were practicing for

because now

if you can practice

in the midst of the trial

it will be that much stronger in the easy times

becasue you are being tested

you are meant to feel small and weak

otherwise there is no test

the conditions are ripe for your success

in this

it is simple

you are being drawn into

a place

that only you can go

the journey is assured

even the outcome is assured

the witnessings is entirely up to you

got to the center

and invoke

2:14am
Q

i see...i feel this to be true.

2:14am
David

the light

got to the center of the pain

the darkest place you can imagine

without resistance

and call unto

your love

call unto your beloved

and receive

embrace

2:17am
Q

i am trembling....

2:17am
David

let go of circumstance

journey

to the center

surrender to your beloved

2:20am
Q

yes.......yes........yes

2:20am
David

thank you

2:20am
Q

i will take these words with me my brother. i love you takig this time with me

2:21am
David

when you can feel the tingle of gratitude moving thoughout your body

for the gift of all the contributors to your trial

you know it is done

2:25am
David

if you feel a panic coming on use it as and experiment...to test out gratitude

graditude

grad

uation

2:26am
Q

that is HUGE!!

never looked at it that way

2:27am
David

that is our mission

that is how we can use our freewill

to save the world

by coming conscious in the midst of the suck

so that the yuk becomes a tool of retraining oneself

to respond with yum

so fear becomes a trigger for our new healthy pattern of remembering to connect with the infinite

our beloved

which of course only can create a spiral

of more gratitude

other wise we have a chose

choice

to succumb

to the usual response of panic

illusion

...

ya know

it's kind of

an amazing thing

2:31am
Q

indeed....i am feeling your words like manna from heaven.

2:32am
David

when ya think about it

that an infinite immortal being

can be afraid of something

can be so caught up in the movie

that they think

themselves

less than

small

less than infinite

but

what an amazing game

we kids have created huh

?

2:34am
Q

~smiling~ yes indeed we have. you know

for many years i was drawn to you and your energy from way back on Tribe, all your adventures and pics.....now i know why.

2:35am
David

we are infinite we live forever

yet

2:35am
Q

i remember u standing one rocks on some cliff with your van in the background, and i thought that fels so free.

2:35am
David

Q

no matter how infinite and immortal we are

the emotional truth

is what we are here

to experience

remember

it was supposed to be fun

this "reality" thing

but the truth is

only what is infinite is real

if it isnt infinite

it isnt real

?

2:38am
Q

word!!

2:38am
David

practice

2:39am
Q

PRACTICE!! so be it!

i will take this in my heart and say go(o)dnight to u brother! i will thank u with my further practice

2:40am
David

this is the walking the talk part

bless and rainbow dreams

2:40am
Q

ain't that the truth

peace brother